03/12/2012 00:07:00 12:07am March 12th, 2012 By braceletseeds
Some days I feel lucky to have had the experiences I have and other times I find myself thinking "what if I had done this" or "if only I had been here, things would be different" or "if I hadn't done that, life would be easier," etc. etc. Difficult moments come and go and life is definitely a rollercoaster of emotions and crises, but what if we changed our attitude and looked at our journey as our own unique history, a personally-directed life movie. Why not embrace this beautiful uniqueness that makes us exactly who we are and in the process richer, stronger, and ever more resilient? Why not embrace our distinct timeline of wrong decisions, tough stages, and altering experiences. These are just plot twists on our journey, regardless of how much better it could have been or should have been. We are exactly where we are supposed to be. And I'm ok with that. Actually I'm happy with that. And it took me a long time to get to this point. Let's see how I feel tomorrow though.
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08/13/2010 15:03:00 3:03pm August 13th, 2010 By braceletseeds
What is it about that sweet nectar, an ill-reputed yet adored carbohydrate named sugar, that gets our memories popping, mouths watering, and thighs growing? I still reluctantly walk down the cereal aisle, eyeing those sugary sheets of pulverized psuedo-fruits, aptly called fruit roll-ups, convincing myself each time that nothing organic tastes that good. And who doesn't have fond memories of those tubes of paper straws filled with colored crystals? Whoever invented those instant diabetes must be in the hate prayers of every mother of an ADHD child. But my favorite sweet indulgence would have to be mounds of minted ice dotted with chips of chocolate. Nothing like of bowl of that after a long day. I can't believe I just wrote an ode to the very thing that I refuse to put in my coffee in the morning, replacing it instead with it's yellow-packaged, guiltless twin.
02/08/2010 23:36:00 11:36pm February 8th, 2010 By braceletseeds
The snow we've been getting in DC has been crazy. Over 2 feet and now they're calling for another 10-12 nches! So what do you do when you continually get snowed in with limited resources and little much else to do than watch reality shows and old movies? Well once you've cooked all the meals you can with whatever's in your cupboard, you gotta think up something more creative to keep you sane and busy. What did they do before Facebook, Dish network, and video games? Sitting around the fireplace, drinking Splenda-infused hot chocolate, and singing Kumbaya is one option. A movie marathon is another. Who doesn't love Back to the Future I, II,and III? Plus I find something new everytime I watch them. Winter cleaning is always a productive solution to imminent hibernation, and I do need a serious wardrobe downsizing. The neighbors have already ripped off the lid of their garbage cans to sled down the snow berms, or accumulated snow left from snow plow removal. That's an option. Hmmm, maybe I do have plenty of things to keep me busy. All I really need, then, is a bag of ice salt to prevent a repeat of Sunday's chiropractic icecapade on my front entrance. Happy Hibernation!
12/24/2009 12:27:00 12:27pm December 24th, 2009 By braceletseeds
This holiday season let's begin celebrating each other's holidays. Why do we have to choose just one? As a child of Lebanse origin, I cherished every holiday, those of my friends and my own, and felt lucky that I had the opportunity to experience and celebrate all of them. I hope to one day let my children understand the beauty and meaning of all the holidays of the world, and give them a taste of each by bringing it into my home.
Happy Chriskwanzukkaheid everyone!
10/29/2009 21:13:00 9:13pm October 29th, 2009 By braceletseeds
Every night I pray for the knowledge and strength to be able to tell the right decisions from the wrong. We are bombarded with so many opportunities, and we don't even know it half the time. We have to figure what path to take, which door to walk through, and what people to network with. But how do you know. Do we use instinct, logic, or is it just plain old luck? Maybe all three. It's scary to think that you might make the wrong decision, but maybe that's just life. You gotta take as many opportunities as you can because you never know when one of them might change your life. Just don't waste all your money on the lottery.
10/07/2009 23:13:00 11:13pm October 7th, 2009 By braceletseeds
I wonder how traffic congestion is affecting our lives. And I don't just mean our time and environment. I mean our actual lives and societies. All of that congestion of negative energy, pollution and emotions has to be doing something to the surroundings. If you believe that focusing on something enough will affect it, then the amount of traffic congestion in the world has to be effecting something negatively. The amount of frustation, irritability, and anger I produce from an hour in traffic is just unhealthy and unproductive. Imagine how much I could do in that hour if I was relaxed, energetic, and unrestricted. I not only prevent stress on my health, but also to those around me. So we have to do something about this traffic. You never know, it might even bring an end to the Middle East conflict.
09/05/2009 13:32:00 1:32pm September 5th, 2009 By braceletseeds
Technology has become such a pervasive entity in our lives that we look upon it has we do buildings or cars. It's here to stay so we might as well live with it in any way possible. I stumbled upon a site (by way of my mom) that captures these feelings of technology's creep into our lives so well. Here are a few of my favorites photos below, but you go to the site and scroll through the interesting creations.
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08/11/2009 23:59:00 11:59pm August 11th, 2009 By braceletseeds
As I made my way down the streets of downtown DC, something particularly odd struck me.
And yet when I looked closer, it wasn't odd at all, but actually very normal and very common.
It would actually be odd if I didn't see what I saw. But twenty years ago I wouldn't have seen what I saw.
And what I saw were massive amounts of people strolling down beautiful boulevards, in perfect weather, hypnotized by a numbing infatuation with technology.
Yes, I am talking about the cell phone. The magical, addictive world of constant communication; who can resisit? In this decade it has now become completely normal to talk to yourself as you drive your car, walk down the street, or walk your dog, to the delight or fright of some unexpecting onlookers. It's become part of life, and it doesn't seem to be going away any time soon.
But it becomes quite humorous when on the same intersection I see pedestrians in all four corners of the crosswalk buzzing away on their cell phones, completely oblivious to their surrroundings, onlookers, and even moving vehicles. I am not one to criticize of course because i have been victim to the emergency phone call about which red dress to buy for the Friday night outing, as I'm walking my dog through a busy intersection. And yes, this usually turns into the cell phone becoming glued to my ear for the rest of walk, degrading my dog's exercise break to a hurried jog so as to get back home and check my facebook page. So, I am the last one to talk.
But the reason I am talking and bringing up this issue is to address the reason why we have to keep our phones glued to our ears, particularly when we are alone. Is it easier to avoid eye contact, interaction, and awkwardeness if we look too busy to engage with other people due to a phone call. It seems more and more the case to me. We sometimes use our technology as an excuse to avoid human interaction, and this very well could be completely subconcious so we don't know we're doing it. Maybe my absentmindedness comes in handy here as many times as I've forgotten my phone at home, only to be forced to make it through the day without my umblical cord.
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08/07/2009 12:29:00 12:29pm August 7th, 2009 By braceletseeds
I love this city. The sights, the smells, the sounds, the soul of the people that keep it beating day in and day out. I could totally live there, walking up and down Park Avenue, grapping a cup of coffee from a corner cafe, walking my chihuahua along the waterfront, taking a stroll in Greenwich village, window shopping for vintage treasures. It's endless and beautiful and yet simple and edgy. That's New York for you. Some people can't handle it and I totally understand. It depends on your perspective. It can be smelly and dirty, mean and sharp, annoying and tiring. But that's part of it's charm. The fact that it's a melange of so many angles, people, cultures, ideas, makes it the crossroads of the country and the world. You really feel like it's happening here, and if you batt your eyelashes just so, they can feel the breeze on the other side of the world. That's what New York does to you. Hate it or love it, it seeps into your veins and refuses to budge from your essence. It calls you back, like an obsessed lover refusing to go away regardless of your feelings. Take me as I am, it tells you. You have to if you want me. And you do.
04/27/2009 22:33:00 10:33pm April 27th, 2009 By braceletseeds
The last thing I usually think about when I'm sitting in my daily hour of traffic is how I would answer the girl who is being a complete witch to me for absolutely no reason.
And yet that's exactly what I was doing today after my recent confrontation with a snarling, innocent-looking, know-it-all, out to rid the world of manners and smiles. There she sat across from me, carefully glaring at my naive smile as I greeted the new faces at an annual gathering she had been to before.
Ok, so you know everyone and everything, get over it. What is it about me kindly greeting everyone and asking about their occupation that makes you frown? Is it in your habit to naturally make those around you feel awkward and uncomfortable. Or are you just trying to break the world record for longest held death-stare?
Maybe it's just me. I tend to be overly sensitive and react to people's possibly innocent outward emotions, assuming there is a problem, or that I had just said something entirely inappropriate. I tend to be a little hard on myself. But even assuming the worst, why is it so hard to find a soul who only naturally reaches out their hand to grab yours and lead you to your best self? I can't help the tendency to constantly do this myself to others, which consistently puts me in the unagreeable position of being taken advantage of. The emotional consequences of too much kindness can be pretty damaging to one's optimisic view of the human race.
But back to the point. One thing that never ceases to tighten its grip around my heart is the unfeeling desire for another person to call out your lack of knowledge on a particular subject halfway through a flowing conversation. And I mean dead stop in the middle of a sentence after minutes of me kindly nodding in agreement, to abruptly ask me if I know the specific meaning of whatever subject or word in question. Way to make a newcomer feel nice and squishy inside. The day that I learn to do this without so much as a thought of compassion is the day you find me beating up all the homeless for taking up the good seats in a park on a nice day.
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